**NOT RELATED TO STORY AGAIN** (The Thoughts of the Broken Hearted)

I can't hold on to me..
Wonder what's wrong with me..
Swallowed up by the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights..
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming..
The godness of imaginary light..
In my field of paper flowers,
And Candy clouds of lullaby..
I lie inside myself for hours..
And watch my purple sky fly over me..
These wounds won't seem to heal..
This pain is just too real..
There's just too much that time cannot erase..
'Cause your presence still lingers here..
And it won't leave me alone..
Don't say I'm out of touch..
With this rampant chaos, you're reality!
I know where what lies beyong my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape..
Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world..
I want to go back to..
Believing in everything,
And knowing nothing at all..
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies,
(..So I don't know what's real and what's not..)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head..
SO I CAN'T TRUST MYSELF ANYMORE!!
Fallen angles at my feet,
Whispering voices at my ear..
Death before my eyes..
Lying next to me I fear,
She beckons me,
Shall I give in?
For all my end,
Shall I begin?
Forsaking all I've fallen for..
I rise to meet the end..
All the little pieces falling, shatter..
Shards of me, too sharp to put back together..
Too small to matter, bug big enough
To cut me into so many little pieces..
I'm frightened by what I see,
But somehow I know that there's much more to come..
Immobilized by my fear..
And seem to be blinded by tears..

Nothing I bleed for is more tormenting..

I'M LOSING MY MIND and you just stand there

And stare as my world divides!!

Will you give your love to me?

Beg my broken heart to beat..

Save my life.. Change my mind..

Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken..

You're not real and you can't save me..

You poor sweet innocent thing!

Dry your eyes, and testify!

You know you love to break me..

Don't deny, sweet sacrifice..

I reach but I feel only air at night..

Not you, not love, just nothing..

Try to forget you

But without you

I feel nothing..

Don't leave me here,

By myself,

I CAN'T BREATHE!!

So you wonder why you hate?

Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?

Are the memories I hold still valid? Or have my tears deluded them?